The times when I'm really unmotivated and beating myself up over the things I don't do, seem to come right before I go and do something different. Like take an art class or rearrange the whole house etc...
It's what I do which is why Tim says I will never be boring!
Thanks I think...
Next time things suck I should say 'wow something really good must be coming my way...'
Because spring has started outside and it seems, it has started within me too...
I'm feeling good.
I'm feeling optimistic.
Everything is making me happy and I barely have time to photograph it for you.
I haven't been ill in at least 3 weeks, a record so far this year. I am full of energy. I wake up early full of plans and raring to go...
This weekend was so sunny and warm and I was literally bursting with gardening plans. Tim came out while I was furiously digging the front garden and said 'You know its only 8 in the morning right??' I can't help it. I'm so sore and tired at the end of the day that I fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow. And I'm still smiling.
Recently I've met up with some best friends who I don't see very often. As much as people can stress you out, a good friend who loves you and really gets you can lift you higher than you can imagine. They reminded me to be kind to myself.
Simple but so important.
(Abi and Amy I love you more than is appropriate)
Right now my house is tidy, my laundry is done, I'm painting...
(I made this card for my mum's birthday...)
I'm bravely attempting to use manual on my camera (I have a hard time remembering the technical side of the camera so I put it off constantly), playdates, homework, walks in the woods? I'm on it.
I'm up in the clouds like a happy balloon swaying this way and that on a windy day...
Oh I know it won't last.
The clocks will change and waking up early will hurt again.
The rain will return probably for weeks knowing England.
I will return to the messy disorganised side of my personality.
My laundry will own me again.
Just writing this post is asking for a virus or a cold (actually my throat does feel a little dry...)
But I don't care because for now it is good.
And swinging from one extreme to the other?
Well it's just what I do x
I was about to hit publish when I looked out the window and saw that it had just started to rain. I felt like opening the window and shouting 'I DON'T CARE! DO YOU HEAR ME? IT WILL JUST FEED THE GARDEN ANYWAYS!!!'
I mean you've got to laugh...