Thursday, 6 June 2013

'Oh the places you'll go...'

'Congratulations!
Today is your day.
You're off to Great Places!
You're off and away!

You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.
You're on your own. And you know what you know
And YOU are the guy who'll decide where to go.'...
Dr. Seuss

When I was was younger I would spend hours upon hours day dreaming about the adventures I would have when I grew up.

I wanted to walk a different life to those around me. I didn't want to stay in my small village like everybody else would. I didn't want to get married and have babies for fear of being tied down to a mundane life. After school I moved to London and did a degree in Development studies which was essentially world studies. Which by the way leads to no job at all...

I didn't know what I wanted to be but I knew I wanted to travel and maybe take pictures while I did it.

I wanted to take the road less travelled...

I did that for a while in a relatively small way and it's a great life to lead. I travelled across America in an old hippy bus eating a vegetarian diet and bathing in rivers. I went to Australia and slept in a tent on the beach. I backpacked all around Europe. Going up mountains (small ones), sleeping on buses and trains, eating delicious and different food, hiking long trails, looking at the stars by a campfire while drinking a beer. There is something to be said for the travelling life and I miss it often. You feel alive everyday. You meet all kinds of people with the same adventurous outlook as you and for a short time they seem like soul mates. You feel like you are onto something real and special that the rest of the world, too busy with mindless jobs, is missing out on. Although not having lived in the rest of the world yet I didn't really know what I was talking about.

It wasn't until a Taxi driver in Egypt held a screw driver to my throat while he took my friends money that I began to suspect that maybe I wasn't cut out for such an existence. It shook me up and deep down I knew that life style wasn't who I really was. Instead it was the way I thought I ought to be. I felt like a fraud because as much fun as I had, I always really really liked coming home.

And look at me now, married with children living in a small village not much bigger than the one I grew up in.

Did I sell out on my dreams?

I don't know, maybe...

and maybe I don't mind...

Or maybe my dreams have changed. Lately I feel like I'm finally leaning in to the real me. Rather than running away from it as fast as my legs could carry me.

And so now my adventures just look a little different...

Made up of smaller seemly ordinary things...
But we know better...
We see what others miss...
And being followed home by a small black cat seems like a very great adventure indeed...


Maybe I am not exactly on the road less travelled these days... 
And that's okay...
Maybe I'm just on MY own road to be travelled 
and it has different adventures perfect for me...

'Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So...get on your way'
Dr. Seuss

13 comments:

  1. What a great post Sian! I think my dreams have changed as I've grown up too. I think we realize what matters more as we get older. And having kids is a whole adventure in itself. You get to experience the world through their eyes a little bit. But wow, sounds like you've had your share of adventures traveling the world! I would still like to travel one day, but it may be years and years.

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    1. It is an adventure isn't it? One Im so glad I took x

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  2. Your pictures are stunning. I know exactly what you mean, having scoffed at many of the things I value most now when I was a younger version of me. Funny how we change. It's good you recognize that and don't always feel guilty for not living that 'glamourous' life you imagined - it is still glamorous, just in different ways!

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  4. I can identify with you. I traveled to many exciting places and met exciting people and now there are times when I feel like my life and the places I go have become so ordinary. But I think as we grow older, those exciting journeys are inward. Your own spiritual evolution is quite exciting and takes you to beautiful destinations. And on the subject of being yourself. I've struggled with that a lot and I think I've decided, for me anyways, that being myself is more a journey than a destination. xx

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    1. So true. I actually feel closer to the real me than ever before.x

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  5. Awesome post! I'm right there with you. My dreams have mellowed a bit, but I don't find anything ordinary about motherhood--it is all so extraordinary and challenging, full of reflection and self-discovery...much like traveling. If EVERYONE traveled, it be quite ordinary. And if very few people raised children...what an extraordinary gift. Think how jealous all those world travelers would be, no? Some friends of mine (I had traveled with them to Nepal years ago) have just returned home after 3 months in India. They have deliberately chosen not to procreate, are tired of their jobs and were trying to figure out 'what to do next.' And while I was envious of their trip to India, I was SO GLAD I am not 37 years old and trying to figure out how to make my life happy. I've got it. There are things I would change, of course, but mostly, I've got it.

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    1. You are so so right. I'm so glad I didn't put off having babies. I had no idea how much I would love motherhood. Or how it would change my life x

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  6. stunning images. not sure why am I missing your posts. You are still an adventurer at heart just more sophisticated. =) Also once the kids are grown you might feel like traveling again.

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    1. Exactly. And when I do I'm coming to see you!!! x

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  7. This post is exactly what I'm feeling! I'm so glad I found your blog <3 love how much you've travelled too. Soooo much to catch up on;) love a xxxxx

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